Trophy of God's Grace: contentment

Sometimes, it is all we can do.... just hang on and allow God to hold us. Monday's disappointment was pretty hard to take (pregnancy hormones thank you so much!), but I am feeling much better now. I have been blessed by visitors each day this week (thank you all!) and that has been a great encouragement and comfort to me. Thank you all for praying for me and baby, that his lungs will finish what they need for his grand entrance next week, and for my family at home, who were expecting me to come home this week.

Being told it is "just" one more week over and over again (I know everyone means well) is quite difficult when you are feeling you can't do even one more day. Not from boredom, mind you. I just miss being together with my family, being at home with them all and taking care of them. Coming to the realization, for like the millionth time in my life, that I can't do it/can't do one more day, is absolutely correct. I cannot. But, God can. All I have to "do" is yield... float, instead of struggle. This is what it truly means to "rest in God" or have the "peace of God", in any and all circumstances...right?

The plan right now is to do the c-section on Monday, 10/27 @ 9:30 AM. FOUR DAYS TO GO!

Thank you for all your prayers. We are praying for:

a safe, uncomplicated c-section, despite all the "risks" the doctors are talking about because of the placenta's position and the likelihood of excessive bleeding, etc.

that Liam will be healthy and not have to spend any time in the NICU

that I will recover quickly, not only from the surgery, but to gain my strength back after 3 months of bed rest

that I won't have any trouble with lactation (having milk come in easily, which has been a huge problem with the last 3 deliveries due to blood loss) and that Liam will be a terrific nurser despite being a bit early.

I can hardly wait to see and hold my baby boy... but more than that, I long for the day he and I come home and I can crawl into my bed, with my husband laying beside me and my children surrounding us on our bed..... and just inhale that moment for as long as possible.

There are a couple of things I have been trying to do consistently lately to help ME with spending and contentment. It has to do with temptation. Stores and marketing departments spends wads of money to TEMPT us. Tempt us to spend more than we should, more than we intended, more than we can afford. And, even if we don't succumb and buy something we are tempted by, we can feel discontent and brood over the "I wish I had enough money to buy ________". Enough already.

Here are two ways I am finding help me deal with this issue:

1. Costco. Since I can't go into Costco with blinders on, the best thing for ME is to simply go to Costco less. Of course, taking a list, sticking to it, all help too. I used to be better about this because our full size freezer was easy to access and I could fill it up on one Costco trip a month. Then, when we moved two years ago, there wasn't a good place for our freezer anymore. Oh, it was plugged in and occasionally held a few items, but it got harder and harder to get to. So, I stopped my once a month Costco trip and started going as often as once a week! Egads! Waste of time, waste of gasoline, and four times the temptation to add a couple "extra" things to the cart each week.

My darling husband recently found a way to rearrange the garage so that the freezer is accessible again. Yeah! Now, I can go back to once a month Costco shopping, stock the freezer with meat and chicken and avoid extra temptation. Of course, I still have to pretend I have blinders on when I go in, even once a month. You know, avoid everywhere but the food sections. lol. I tell you, those marketers are good... they make you have to go past all the extra stuff before you can get to the food.

2. Catalogs. Ugh. Am I the only one who doesn't appreciate a mailbox full of catalogs? Half the time I'm not interested in what they are selling, so those are easy to take directly from the mailbox to the paper recycling bin. But, it is that other half... the ones I do occasionally make a purchase from online...that have items that do tempt me. What's a targeted consumer to do?

And as if it isn't enough that catalogs tempt me, there are ones that come in the mail that tempt my kids too! And I'm not talking just at Christmas time. My all time favorite to dislike when the kids get to it? Birthday Express! The kids can devour that catalog and dream and plan birthdays a year in advance. And it all leads to discontented hearts because I'm not buying anything from that catalog. What's a mother to do?

For the last couple of months I have been taking ALL the catalogs straight to the paper recycling bin, even if it is the Eddie Bauer catalog. I don't let the kids look at any of the catalogs that come in the mail, if I can help it. I am trying to get better at this. Avoiding temptation is so much easier than dealing with discontented hearts!

Then today I found out about Catalog Choice! Though it is a good exercise in character for me to keep dumping catalogs without looking at them, it would be even better if they never sullied my mailbox in the first place (not to mention the waste of paper, ink, postage, etc.). Catalog Choice is a free service that allows you to opt out of receiving catalogs. Sign up, browse through all the catalogs that are already linked to this service, find the one(s) you don't want to receive anymore and hopefully within a couple of months your mailbox will be catalog free (your postal delivery person will thank you too!). If you are still receiving catalogs after you opted out, it is just another click of a button to report this.

It is best if you have the catalog(s) in front of you when you are opting out, so that they can include your customer number (even if you've never bought anything from them, you have this number!) in the opt out request. You don't have to include this number and I'm pretty sure even without that number they can find you and remove you from their list. That is what I did, since I don't have any catalogs around.

It does take a few minutes to browse through the whole list of catalogs. If you know exactly which ones you receive you can go directly to those. I discovered that there are a lot more catalogs I am receiving than I realized. I found 29 that I was really sure of. TWENTY-NINE!!! There are a few more that go to my husband, so I need to set up an account for him so that we can opt out of those too. There are also a few I'm not sure I receive anymore. So, I'll look at the catalog titles when they come in the mail and if I haven't opted out on any of them yet, I can add them to my list. I can also add back in the customer account numbers at any time.

1 Timothy6:6-12
Now there is great gain in godliness with contentment, for we brought nothing into the world, and we cannot take anything out of the world. But if we have food and clothing, with these we will be content. But those who desire to be rich fall into temptation, into a snare, into many senseless and harmful desires that plunge people into ruin and destruction. For the love of money is a root of all kinds of evils. It is through this craving that some have wandered away from the faith and pierced themselves with many pangs. But as for you,O man of God, flee these things. Pursue righteousness, godliness, faith, love, steadfastness, gentleness. Fight the good fight of the faith.

This is a passage I need to mediate on as I shop, browse a catalog, browse the internet, etc. I have a long way to go. I have found over the years that discontentment has many, many faces. Just when I think I have conquered discontentment, I find that I haven't really conquered it, just perhaps one form of it and maybe only for that day!

What have you found helps you in this area? Share your tips in the comments section and after there are several I will make a post with them so we all can learn from each other.