Hanging up my "Super Mom" cape...

In case anyone is wondering what happened to me since the wedding, rest assured I am still alive. My health has taken a bit of a bad turn and so I haven't focused much on blogging. I won't bore you with the details and we still don't know everything (waiting on some more blood test and MRI results). Hoping and praying to have enough information for the doctor to put it all together and decide on a treatment plan. He knows what some of the issues are but doesn't want to miss anything, so waiting to start some treatments until he has all the info. While I do appreciate the thouroghness, it is hard to wait to start treatment. I do want to start feeling better.

Meanwhile, God is teaching me much about my expectations verses what my body can do right now. I am having to lay low..not exactly bedrest, but I can't do much more than that. Learning how to run the household from my room, do school in my room, entertain the kids in my room etc. We had a church activity at our house for the group that went to Gleanings for a week in August (not the two weeks we were there, but one of our sons also went with our church for an additional week) and the youngest seven and I stayed upstairs in my room and had a picnic dinner on the floor and watched a movie on my laptop. The kids ate crackers, almonds, cheese sticks, grapes, and carrots. We had a great time!

This new season of mom being sick may turn into a whole topic here, as I learn how to cope with these new circumstances and still homeschool, keep the house in some sort of order and take care of myself at the same time. I think my older children are and will be learning more about cooking, lol. I am learning how to ask for help even in things that seem so simple. For instance, if I can get one of the kids to take my dirty laundry down to the washer on Saturdays, I can start it (I like to check for spots and stains that need treating before the washer starts and the kids aren't too good about that aspect of laundry), have the kids move it to the dryer, then bring the dry clothes up to me in my room and I can sit on the floor and fold the laundry without wearing myself completely out. It is hard to depend so much on others, but I am being forced to learn.

Appreciate your prayers for wisdom for my doctor and healing for my body. I also want to learn all that God has for me to learn during this time, enjoy it as much as I can, in that I have more time to just snuggle with my kids, read to them,etc. And, yes, it is a bit sad that it takes me getting this sick to slow down enough and "smell the flowers". I have been blessed with a lovely garden of children and it is too easy to be so caught up in the day to day busyness of a big family that I miss out on actually really, REALLY, enjoying my children/flowers. Breathe deeply of the oh-so-sweet fragrance of each child!